Small but really Terrible
This is me, being someone else behind the mask and wall I created myself. I am someone small. I am someone good and bad at the same time. I am someone who wears a mask in front of everyone.
I am someone they call “small”, they may see me as a
jolly person but believe me, I have a world where people whom I really trust
can enter. I am someone who has trust issues. Most people are critics, and they
can judge weird people like me. I’m weak when I fear a lot. I’m quite eccentric
and incompetent. I’m a little bit rakish or disreputable. And I am someone who
wears a mask in front of everyone. You would understand what’s in my mind if
you know my story. You would know me better if I took my mask off for you. If
you earned my trust, maybe we’ll be friends.
Both of my parents are small. And I inherited their
traits. And I have insecurities about other people’s height. Many people call
me small I wasn’t offended or anything, but it made me feel more conscious and
insecure. Ever since the day I realized that my height wasn’t enough for me, I didn’t
feel confident about myself anymore. I tried using different height
supplements. I tried skipping, stretching, and exercising. I tried to sleep for
more than 8 hours. I tried to avoid people who smoke around me. I tried not to
drink anything with caffeine. There was a change, although I gave up because
there are lots of things to do in school. I’m now 15 years old, but I’m still
hoping that I’d grow a few more inches. I tried doing all of these again during
quarantine, but there are no changes.
They may see me as a jolly and outgoing person. But that
was before…
It’s my insecurities that swallowed me and pulled me
deep. I just couldn’t be like this, being small and can’t get over my height.
Being insecure is so frustrating. Being fearful is tiresome. Having trust
issues is miserable. And being incompetent is despicable. That’s what I really
am. Someone small and terrible.
But then I realized that height isn’t the basis of
happiness and success. Height is just a number or a physical appearance. But it
won’t measure up with your happiness in life.
I may look small, I have trust issues, insecurities and flaws. I built my own wall so that no can invade me except the people I trust. But one thing remains, and that is my principles and my passion.
Height is just a number that couldn't measure up with your happiness in life.
I agree, height is but a number, it does not define who you are as a person. I am intrigued and I've found your article to be quite impactful, not just to me but everyone who had been belittled before, it was a real eye opener for me. You are who you are, and there will always be people who will appreciate you no matter what. The issues you're facing now? will just be a memory to look back on in the future, you have done a great job, it's a really wonderful article.
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